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Just came back from town not long ago... ... Currently, I am on a diet plan. Food, don't lure me to eat you up. -___-" This is fucked up. &I realise my facial expressions in the pictures are like all the same. Whatever la. I shall try to find another expression for the next post. I've nothing much to blog about today. I agree this is fucked up. Bye.

FB the PS

Lucky it has not pass 00:00 so it's still today. YAY! :D Anyway, I seem to have STM? I keep forgetting stuffs. But oh well, I'm like that, can't help it. I am also quite into FB the PS. My cousin made me addicted. FYI, she is younger than me. She is very good at making me addicted to the games she play. I wonder how she does it. Since I am addicted to FB the PS, I am going back to play with my pet name ABC now. Teeheehee.

Dear god, protect your child.

Seems like it is going to rain this whole week. Click here. I will bring my umbrella, though I don't think it will be of much help, and also my disposable poncho. I will look ugly but it is better than getting myself soaked and be wet chicken(direct translation from落汤鸡) which means drenched. This sentence makes no sense to me. Francesca said that I aren't talking sense today, which I have to agree 'cause I don't get what I am talking to her about too. lolololol YAY! :D I am currently feeling a little dizzy and nauseous. +o( I think maybe it's the food that I've eaten. Should I go and puke it out or not? Whatever la. This is getting a little out of control. I think I am not talking sense at all, shall end it here. Bye la bye lah.

This is my pm: "OMGXZXZXZ Swine flu. Please don't come to me. I don't want to die yet. Please please. Dear god, protect your child."

Today today.

I woke up at 2+pm. Went downstairs to cook maggie mee for lunch then came back up. Chatted with family and friends on msn and skype, also blogged. Went down for dinner and had a little chat with Rob. Then back up again and sitting in front of the lappie till I go and sleep. Oh ya, addition to previous post. Miss Goh got me a cardigan and I got her a skirt.

Backkk.

Friday, I double checked my luggage and Henderson. Told grandma that I am leaving and that see her at the end of the year. My parents and I went to Bedok. I wanted to take my second dose for my Hepatitis A but the doc said that it was too soon. Mummy and I went to check out the hp prices 'cause I wanted to get a new hp but I thought that it was not worth and mummy agreed. So she will get it during the M'sD period and bring it over for me 'cause they will have promos. Hehe.. This means I can get a more ex hp. YAY! :D But but, I am thinking if I should get a new hp or not 'cause it's more like a want then need. My current hp is still usable but it gives me problems here and there at times. So... I think it's a want. Conclusion, Miss Teo should not get a new hp and save the money. But then again, I REALLY WANT A NEW HP. Hurhuhs.. ;( We went to the food center beside the market to buy our lunch. Yum yummm.. I really like hawker food. Then to Kembangan. Ate lunch then went to pick up my dearest cousin, Lee Shi Min! She looked really worn out, poor girl. I ate lunch with. Mummy opened a canned of abalone for me. Woohoo~ I gave LSM the smaller piece and I took the bigger piece 'cause I am older and bigger and I get to eat it lesser than her. So yeah, I wasn't mean to her k! Went to shower and left for airport. WSPPLPLWBP Francesca reached earlier than me. Yang Ya Ting came to see me off, she was there before me. I was late, always. The queue at the airport was so slow. Both our luggage overweight. Miss Goh was 25.*kg and she was lucky that mine was 20.*kg. So I had to hand carry the other bag that made mine overweight and also had to take out some things. ;@ Ahh... I want my heels, my rock sugar, my lollies, my everything that I take out! Hmpfff! >;@ Leonard Choo came while I was trying to squeeze as much things as I into my hand carry luggage. YYT saw him carrying smth in the plastic bag so she ask for who, what is it inside. LC replied for his girlfriend. KPO me wanted to see what it was so I asked him to let me see then he said it was for me. Lol. Anyway, tyvm for the domokun and I didn't eat it up. ;) We went to a Chinese eating place and had our dinner real quick 'cause I was rushing for time. My dad foot the bill and LC gave me ten bucks for his dinner 'cause he said he would pay for his own dinner even when I said no need. I gave it to my mummy and my mummy asked me for what. I said LC said that he didn't want to eat a free meal. My parents told him to keep his money and I did too. I told mummy to take the domokun out then he finally said ok, he kept his money. Hahahah. LC, you lost. Took pictures and bye bye. YYT and LC, your are not out casted! I walked like real fast 'cause I was late. The queue to get into the gate was so long and very slow. I was looking out for Fran and she was inside alr. She's so fast. As a very good friend, she helped me carried my lappie. Tyvm Miss Goh. Summarise the plane ride; boring, tiring and scary. We reached on Saturday afternoon. Her host fetched me home 'cause they said that I so poor thing, no one come and pick me up. Tyvm Francesca's hosts. They are very nice ppl. Fran and I went down to JV mall to pass Jack his bag that Fran bought for him as a gift. I didn't buy anything 'cause I have no idea what to get and I didn't even go shopping in SG. Walked Fran to wait for her train as I've nothing to do too. Bi called me. Yes yes yes, so happy 'cause I can see him and also get my luggage that I tong-pang him. Heheh.. Cabbed home and had a good rest.

All mineeeeeee! :P

Me, LC &YYT.

To -James-aka [Lon3Wolf]: Ty. But I am fine now. Cheers. :)

Hello Wellington.

Finally I am back. I feel better here. I'm so very sleepy now, so I'm going to head for bed and update tomorrow. Miss you all! :)

Day 5 in Taipei.

I haven't been blogging for quite some time. In Singapore playing mahjong, meeting up, having meals together, and coming to Taipei. I feel so... relax? I've had enough of this. I want to go back to school, get back on track and study hard. I want to be back in Wellington, the place that I feel safe in. I miss Wellington, I miss my room, I miss going to school, I miss going to the supermarket and I miss going to town doing nothing. Mostly, I miss those times spend with you.

I've been controlling myself. I've been feeling rather down. I've been holding back my tears. I told myself that I will not cry when I left Wellington but I did when I was in the plane. I did, I did! I am neither excited to be back in Singapore nor this trip to Taipei. I feel so different. Someone tell me why I am feeling like this. I feel that I don't understand you too. I am like a lost teenage, wondering around doing nothing and feeling so lost. I lost.

Someone, save meee.. &To my dear readers, I am not desperate also I will not write to some magazine to let people laugh at me.

Hello Singapore :)

I see Francesca for 63 hours and stuck at the airport together for 21 hours.. ;) Ystd, Fran and I left her place at 3:45am. Her mum's friend, auntie Christina, came to fetch us to the airport. We reached the airport arnd 4am. When we saw the queue, we were like wow I thought we are early but there were so many more people much earlier than us. zzz Fran luggage overweight by 2kg and mine by 4kg. The mean counter lady told us that we overweight and we have to pay 44NZ$/kg and she didn't want to give us any advantage and our pretty ticket. Rawrs.;@ So we removed some things and put them into our handbag and hand carry luggage. Finally, we got our ticket. Woohoo~~ We forgot to pay for airport tax and get what our mummy requested for, so went to pay for it and get them. We were like walking real fast as rushing for time 'cause we were late and scared that we miss our flight. Luckily, we made it in time. Phew. We walked around Melbourne airport the transit area for so many many times. The airport is so small and boring. Time to board the aeroplane, so excitied. Omgxzxzxzxzxz. The flight so was boring. I played dota and kept eating. Hehe. Francesca was so happy when landing. You should have seen her, so cute manz. I stand on the chair to get our hand carry luggage to get our more than 7kg hand carry luggage down. We chionged to the arrival hall and waited for a long time at the belt. When we got our luggage, yipeeeee finally can leave the airport. We parted at the airport. Fran, tyvm for everything. See you soon my dear Fran. I'll miss you! ;) I went to LB with my parents and boyfriend. Dad sent boyfriend back and home sweet home. Showered and went to sleep. I shall upload the pictures I take past few days.


Taken on 8thApril'09:

Taken on 9thApril'o9:

See you ww.

{recovered}

I'm currently using Francesca's laptop 'cause mine can't connect to her internet plus we've no idea how to fix it and can't be bothered too. Haha. She's sound asleep right now so I am trying my best to make as little noise as I can and trying to keep myself awake 'cause we don't want to miss our flight. I am letting Francesca catch her sleep now 'cause she is really very tired and I can sleep at anywhere as long as I am in the mood to sleep, so yeah. I shall summarise what we did today. Town, TimeZone, Pool, Readings, Dinner, LaserForce then home but I am at Francesca's place 'cause we will be going to the airport together later on. See you all soon yo. ;)

Heavy heart.

{sick&tired}

I've been coughing for sixteen days already. I wonder when I will recover from this irritating cough. Sighs. I packed my gifts into my luggage and found out that there is very little space left for my clothing, bags and face products. What about my sandals, shoes and slippers. How? I'm so stress now. ;( Today is the last day of school for this term. I will go to school today, I must go to school today but I don't want to go to school today. I want to stay home, pack my luggage and wash my clothes. I hate school for today. The only reason I am willing to go to school is because I have to take my math internals. Why don't they test us on this Monday. Why must they leave it till the last day. Argh..

Packed all these in my luggage & I have to squeeze my other things in.

Jerica&Francesca.

Jerica&Francesca again.

More of Jerica&Francesca.

I like to have pretty girlfriends but I don't like to take pictures with them. For example, I don't like to take pictures with Francesca 'cause she looks so good in them. 8o| Today, I'm going to Francesca's place to stay over. This is the third time. We're going to spend hours dressing up before leaving house. We're going to sleep early tomorrow night, so we will be not so tired at the airport. We're going to spend the time eating and grow more fat 'cause we've nothing to do during the long transit timing. FYI, it's about 8 hours. We're going to enjoy ourselves when we reach Singapore. Singapore, here I come! Bi, I am going to kick your butt! ^^

Now.

{sick&hungry}

13thMarch'09

I miss my boyfriend. Boyfriend, boyfriend, boyfriend! I shall stop crying 'cause my stupid boyfriend doesn't even care about me. Sucks. That's all for today. Byeeeeeeeeee.

You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
In what you say or do
I'm only just beginning
To see the real you

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I want to hold you till I die
Till we both break down and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through all the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I want to hold you till I die
Till we both break down and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times Id like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times Id like to break through
And hold you endlessly


At times I understand you
And I know how hard you try
I watched while love commands you
And Ive watched love pass you by
At times I think were drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I want to hold ya till I die
Till we both break down and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides
Subsides

Today.

{sick&sad}

Taken on 4thApril'09

Bi is leaving Wellington in about 6 hours time. He's going to have fun with his friends in Singapore. Hopefully, he remembers to reply my messages. If he doesn't, I will cry and I will drop my heavy luggage on his toes when I see him then he will be unable to go for his muay thai training. I am so mean, I am so mean, I am so mean, I am so mean, I am so mean. So what? Who ask him to ignore me. I, as a kind girlfriend, lend him my number so he can message or call his friends to meet up with them. Then now, I don't even know if I have a number for myself. I want to go back Singapore today. I want to go back and live my spoilt brat life. I want to go shopping. I want to get more clothes and shoes. I want to be pampered and treated like a princess. I don't want to go back to Singapore...

Wait for meee.

{sick&unhappy}

Just came back from Bi's house. During dinner time, I screwed up the rice that Bi's mum kept for him. I feel so bad, seriously I mean it. All I need to do is to add the sachets of things in the box and add water then put it in the microwave oven. I added the sachets of things into the box then put it in the microwave oven, I forgot about the water process. It was such a easy task and yet I couldn't do it. I'm such a horrendous girlfriend. Lucky Bi bought fried chicken wings from Chinese Takeaway. I felt so bad and lousy, so to compensate. I made my best dish for him, maggie mee. (-___-") Bi was happy with the maggie mee that I made for him but I am still unhappy. We arm wrestle after dinner. Bi won me, I won Jason and Jason was the loser. Bi's mum joined us too. She was neutral. :) Took some photos of Bi, Jason and me(without make up). I had to reduced the size of all the pictures just so I can upload them here.

Caleb&Jason looking serious.

Jason&Caleb having fun playing.

Caleb calls me fat.

Jason ready to attack.

I look high. This is a candid shot, taken by Jason.

I've no idea what Jason was trying to do.

Fun shot.

Jason&I bullying Caleb.

The final photo...

Excuse me for my lousy English in this post.

Tomorrow.

{sick&upset}

It's twelve plus am and yet I am not sleeping. I can't sleep at all. I am thinking about Bi leaving tomorrow, that's so sad. We're going to be separated again. It's not forever but for 3 days. ;'( I'm going to cry everyday. I am crying now even when he has not left and most prolly enjoying his sleep right now. I've to go through the same torture that I've been through, but without mummy coming here with me to face it for the first two weeks when I return from Singapore this time. I don't want to go back to Singapore, I want to stay in Wellington. Why must I go back when I just manage to stabilise my emotional self. Why, why, why! I'm going crazyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy..

Soon.

{sick&sad}

I'm going to share my feelings and thoughts instead of what I've done today. Francesca was talking to me about boyfriend girlfriend things and... At that moment, I've no idea why I felt this way but I felt empty and lonely. I started to question myself with if I still do love Bi like how I used to or I just can't let go of this relationship yet. Will I last forever with Bi or leave him again. Can I really commit myself to this relationship or am I just too weak that I keep giving in to him. I've been thinking about all sorts of bgr questions since just now till now.

Finally, I've got my answers and my heart is celebrating. :) I definitely still do love Bi like how I used to or I would not have last with him till now. I made up my mind to come here to find Bi and I did not regret, though I've to make lots of sacrifices. To Bi, all the sacrifices I've made for you are worthwhile 'cause you've been trying your very best to make me a happy girl too. For example, waking up early everyday to attend school without fail(unless you are sick) though you don't want to and think school is a waste of time. I really appreciate every thing that you've done for me and giving me. The only thing I hate about you is when you don't want to listen to what I say when it will be of help to you. >;@ I know you hate it when I am indecisive, I'm just so fickle. But I'm not fickle when it comes to choosing my boyfriend 'cause my heart only wants to click with yours. Even though I promised you over and over again that I will not leave you and I still did. I definitely will not anymore 'cause you're a part of me now. It's just like the heart needs the beat. I definitely have been committing myself to this relationship, right. &Alegre que eres aquí conmigo.

To my dear parents, if you are reading this. I am so sorry to make you spend so much on me just because I've been playful and wilful in the past. I promise you that I will not let you down this time, never from now on. Trust me.. Thank you very much for bringing me up and enduring all the nonsense I've been giving to your. I'm glad I have parents like your. I love you both very much.

(Taken on 25thOctober'08)

<3

Confused.

{sick&feeling much better}

Today, it's the day that we remove our daylight saving. I still have no idea what this daylight saving is all about, it's so confusing. :S Went over to boyfriend's house again. Again and again and again... I bought four Hubba Bubba bubble tapes. I've got 1 seriously strawberry, 1 groovy grape and 2 triple mix. I gave 1 triple mix to Bi to share with younger brother. His parents bought sushi for lunch. Me like sushi. We also had apple crumble with ice cream. :D After lunch, I watched shows with Jason while Bi was sleeping. I slept too 'cause I was sleepy. I didn't sleep on the same bed as Bi, don't anyhow think. Woke up and woke Bi up to pack his luggage. He didn't pack his luggage, all he did was to stand there and looked at me while I was doing it for him. See, I am such a nice girlfriend. *-) Time for dinner, home cooked food. Me like too. I just like to eat food that tastes good kay, that's why I am not skinny and I don't care. Hahahahaha... I cried 'cause the evil side of Caleb appeared when Bi was playing Dota. He kept abusing my keyboard and kept scolding my laptop when they did not even offend him. Hmpf! :@ The angry me told him off and he had to stop his game. Packed up and waited for my host to pick me up. Hmm.. Should I pack my luggage now or another time?

To fran: If I can do that, you'll have to get me 10 salmon sushi and 1 strawberry milk shake.

Enjoying the simple life.

{sick&recovering}

My dear boyfriend is sleeping now and I am still not sleeping. I think I should go and sleep too after blogging, after my daily routine and after I go pee. Heh. This morning, my sell fish boyfriend called me at 8:23am. So I asked him if there was anything that I could do for him. He said: "Ya, faster wake up and come my house." The sleepyhead me replied, for what. He replied, for fun. You tell me, how can I not be angry with him! Gosh! I didn't care about him and went back to sleep 'cause today is wake-up-late day. :) Woke up, showered and changed up then sat at the living room while waiting for my host to drop me off at Bi's place. When I reached Bi's place around 10:30am, he was playing CNC(?) in his younger brother's room. They woke up early and played till I reached. W-O-W. I took out my laptop and join them, but I watched shows instead of gaming. I fell asleep while watching. We had fish&chips for lunch. Me like. :D After lunch, we continued watching the shows. I fell asleep again. Somehow, I feel very sleepy today. We had spaghetti for dinner. Me like too. :D Summarize for today, I watched shows fell asleep and I enjoyed my food. :D:D

francesca says:
so u feeling better now?
JERICA ♥ -- 今そして永久に愛しなさい {sick} says:
yeap
JERICA ♥ -- 今そして永久に愛しなさい {sick} says:
My boyfriend is my medicine. Hehe.
francesca says:
haha good
francesca says:
so u will come to sch on mon i suppose
JERICA ♥ -- 今そして永久に愛しなさい {sick} says:
ya
francesca says:
good
francesca says:
anw, i think my sense of direction is so good
francesca says:
i walked by myself from the train station to timezone today!
francesca says:
lol
JERICA ♥ -- 今そして永久に愛しなさい {sick} says:
Oh. Wow. So what reward do you want from me? &I can do that too! So do I get a reward?
francesca says:
you can meh
francesca says:
i like rmbed how to walk from that day jack showed us on the boxing day
JERICA ♥ -- 今そして永久に愛しなさい {sick} says:
ya
JERICA ♥ -- 今そして永久に愛しなさい {sick} says:
-.-
(She didn't reply me after that.)

Last day of MC.

{sick&sleepy}

Today, I maked good use of my MC. I slept in till about lunch time and went to school to meet Bi and all. Waited for Bi to end school then go to his place. He is such a big bully I tell you. He wanted me to go to his gym to train with him when I am so sick, but smart me decided to go with him and not waste time arguing with him. You must be thinking why I said that I am smart. Indeed I am 'cause when we reached his gym, I faster act so so sick then went to sleep. YAY, and so I managed to escape from his perverted training. :D The sad thing was that I forgotten to take my oh-so-not-lovely hp so I had to walk up that steep slope back to get my hp. He, lousiest boyfriend you can find on earth, asked his sick girlfriend to run for my bus when the next one is just 10 minutes away. I did and so here I am blogging.

Back to update! As a very good friend, I searched high and low for my dear girlfriend and found out that she was actually with Ben, Oscar and Soo having fun. I shall hate Francesca for today 'cause she disturbed my patient sleep. Hmpf! >;@ Francesca, you suck. You went to HONEYCO without me.

I see you :)

{sick}

Stuff school for today. Went to boyfriend's house to pass him the medicine. He went down to the mall with me. Finally, he is leaving house and we like kinda go pak-tor. Hehe. :) He bought the things that he needed to get then we went Umi Sushi and had a bento. It tasted quite good. They only offer one kind of bento box so you know which one to get if you want a value for the money meal. That's all for today. I am going to continue webcam with my childhood friend now. Tata~

To Fran: Xin Yi, I will get well but not so soon. You must have patience. :) You just saw me just now! I think you are in love with me. Hahahaha...

Not feeling any better.

Last night, I almost cough my lungs out. Wow. Woke up this morning around seven plus and felt sooooooo sick, felt worse than yesterday so I went back to sleep till twelve plus pm. Called up OMC to make an appointment again, showered and left house in a rush to catch the bus. FYI, there is only one bus every hour and I stay at the hill top near the mountains. (Imagine that you are me, you will run to catch the bus. ) The taxi here is too costly. For example, a walking distance(up and down hill) of 30 minutes will cost you $15. So now will you still say that I am cheapo? Back to topic. Alighted at Truscott Ave and walked to school to meet Francesca. Oh, I saw little bitch today. What a turn off! Francesca and I walked to the mall. When I turned around, I saw Oscar and Su An(?) so we walked to the mall together. Had BOB's fried chicken and chips. Mmmm...M I also bought Vitamin Water, Kiwi and Strawberry flavour. I like. :D My kind friend name Jack helped me today, again. He walked to OMC with Francesca and I, then he walked down alone to the pharmacy to get my cough syrup for me. This time round, I got another doctor. I think this doctor is better. He manage to find out that my lungs are infected and he gave me antibiotics for it, not tell me TLC is what I need. Boo to the previous doctor! Francesca and I walked to basketball court to find the guys. Francesca saw that the CC was open, she asked me to go and play pool with her and so I did. Left at six to catch the bus home. Oh, I also bought kiwi ham smoked to make sandwiches. Bi and I will have that for tomorrow's lunch. YAY!

Jack, thank you very much for helping me when I always need help. :)

¡Volveré a Singapur en nueve días!

To yating: Haha to Rajeevan! The other time he went to disturb you at your blog too right, called the prata man(?). Thank you. :) Hopefully, I will get well soon.