All Gone.

Home^Onslow College^Bi's house^JV Mall(Food court)^Home.

I realise that I have been thinking of others and not myself. I am doing things to please people but this is not what I actually want. So... I am going to live for myself from today onwards. I will not let anyone control me or destroy me. I will not be kind to you if you intend to foil my plan. 'cause I am no longer that nice little girl.

I said that I want to go foundation year next year, and I will. I will do my part and I hope my parents will help me. I will study mighty hard till I crash, hopefully I don't. Even CLJL can't stop me this time. I will not stop him from doing whatever he wants 'cause it's his life and I hope he will respect my decision. I hope everyone else respects my decision too.

I will ignore those little sluts in school for the moment and mess with them at the end of the year. Be nice to me and I may change my mind. Bitch more about me and pray hard that you will not get one or rather a few slaps from me, on your fuck face. :)

After saying so much, the main reason is 'cause I realise that I will not be 17 again and that I am going to be 18 next year. I am getting old. Damn.

I will stop thinking about shopping though I have the urge to buy things. I think I have some kind of diseases. I can't control myself when I see something I like, I must have it! Sometimes I buy them and I don't use it. It's such a waste of money. I think and think and think. ... ... AHA! I got an idea. When I feel like getting things, I go to the supermarket. Why? 'cause there is nothing much I can get from there. But then again, there is a lot of things I can get from there. Ranging from bread, cereals, chocolates, drinks, snacks, noodles, meat and many more. Wtfbbqxz. Okay, this idea is not very good after all. Suggestions anyone?

I am going to do some reading now. I hope I will not wake up in the middle of the night again. Sighs.

To thgirl(:: I wanted bangs to keep my forehead warm but when the wind blows, it's er erm okay. Conclusion: bangs isn't helpful when there is constant, strong wind.

599 Swine Flu cases in Singapore.

Wowee. That's a lot aye. Anyway, I am kinda safe because I am not going back to Singapore and I need not be quarantine. :D If I go back and kena(get) quarantine, I will be wasting my time and moolah. On the other hand, I am not totally safe because New Zealand has 453 Swine Flu cases. Booooooo... :( Good luck Francesca, I hope you don't get quarantine. I also pray that you will meet some cute guy and he thinks that you look cute with your mask on(that's provide if you did wear your mask). Most prolly, you guys click and hmm... ^^

Home^Onslow College^Bi's house^JV{[Mall(Countdown^Entrance^Just Jeans)]^Bus stop}^Home.

1. Should I get a short bomber jacket? If yes, should I get cream or red colour? Btw, it's real pretty. :)
   
2. I tried to get the internet to work with my lappy for about an hour before I can finally come online. Phew~
3. I can't wait for the holidays to begin.

To thgirl(:: Yep, all by myself and it's my first time cutting bangs. Want me cut for you? (6) Hehehe.

How nehxz.

Home^Bi's house^JV[Subway $10.40^Mall(Trends^Countdown^Spectacle shop)^Warehouse^Woolworths^Dicksmith]^Bi's house^Bus stop^Home.

I want to go back to Singapore this holiday.
I want to see mummy, family and friends.
Aaaarrrrrgggggghhhhhhh! :(

To thgirl(:: Nope to? Tyvm. I cut my bangs myself. Actually, it's kinda sei-eh. Shh... Don't tell anyone if you spot the slanted parts. Heh. ^^

Fat or round?

Home^JV[Bus stop^Mall(Vodafone)^Train station]^Francesca's place(Help her dye her hair and I have dyes on my feet now.)^Ngaio station^JV(CC^Mall^Nando's)^Home.

After straightening my hair. I hatex the round face of mine.

After make up on.

After changed of clothes. Tada~ :D

To thgirl(:: I'm alright. Thank you for your concern. :)

Wound.

Home^Onslow College^Home.


I don't ask you much.
I don't bother if you still care for me.
I don't care if you take a second look at me.
I don't do what I used to do.
I don't even feel it.
I don't feel sad that you are not with me.
I don't get the attention I used to get from you.
I don't hate you for anything, never.
I don't irritate you like how I used to.
I don't joke around with you as often as I used to.
I don't kiss you like I used to because...

因为我累了。
I feel the pain but it doesn't bother me.
Maybe it's because the way you are now.

"I'm not the best girlfriend but as long as you think I am, I'm happy. :) You know, I know, we know that I love you. I'm yours only." Do you remember this? Maybe not.

I really do hope to hang out with you like how we used to. Or it is impossible already? I miss those times that it was just you and me. We can be together for the whole day doing nothing but we are still happy and loving it, but now we hardly do anything together. Even in school, I sit beside you in class but I don't feel the same. I think it's part of growing up and that we will never stay the same. I love you and I always will. My feelings for you will never fade till you tell me that I should stop loving you because it's making you so hard to breathe. Bet you never knew how much you've hurt me since Friday, May 15, 2009. Especially when you call me crazy. I was so angry with you and wanted to burst into tears, yet I hold back. Since you don't like so many things about me, why do you still want to love me? I just don't get it. I believe all these is also part of you growing up and the way you treat and handle this relationship is different.

PJ is me.

Home^Onslow College^JV Mall(BOB^Umi Sushi^Countdown^BOB^Umi Sushi^Bus stop)^Home.

To thgirl(:: Alrightey. See you during December holidays. ;)

Rush.

Home^Onslow College(HPV Dose1.)^Porirua{The bus ride was damn long. [Pak'N'Sav^Mall(ASB^Cotton On, Pink Cardigan$10 + Top$5.^Equip^Glassons^Food court $6 plate^Toilet^K Mart)^Bus stop]}^JV^Home.

I got cheated by the bus drive. I told him to Churton Park and he gave me a single ticket to JV only instead of a transfer ticket. Arghhhh!




To thgirl(:: Yeah! I've heaps of things to do. Now on top of that, I've got to spend more time on my school work too. z

Homesick.

Home^Home^Home.

I stayed home the whole day.
I am sick. I am tired.
I am going back to do my work.
Bye.

Mummy!
I miss you,
I hope to see you soon,
I don't know when,
but I guess it's impossible.

173 more days.
I wish that the day will pass faster.
I hope the night will be shorter.
Because I am just like child who wants her mummy by her side all the time.

Dilemma.

Home^Onslow College^Bi's house^Home.

Foundation year or year 13? I really hope that I can go foundation year too, even though I am a year slower than other people. I am tired of school and it is really a waste of time. Only 3 out of 6 subjects I am taking now will be of use to my course. Actually, I am not sure if they are or not too. Sianz.

Day2.

Good move.

Home^Bi's house^Home.

Oh btw, I am currently very interested in International Political Economy. I have no idea what got into me but I am very determined to read finish this book called Introduction To International Political Economy by the end of July. I got to know about this book from Tiffany. It is her university textbook. Hopefully, this book will also help me to have a better understanding for Economics. :D

Day 1.

To thgirl(:: I will try to bake it again but it will be after July I guess. Currently I am chiong-ing to finish a book that is about 500 pages thick by the end of July and I have to search the net and refer to other books to actually understand the whole book. Since the technology now is so awesome, I don't think I will refer to other books because I am too lazy and also I don't have the time. What's more. I still have school work to do! I think school is useless. v^^v

Just another day.

Home^JV Mall(Countdown^Just Jeans)^JV Tailor(:P to Bi.)^Bi's house^JV Mall(Just Jeans)^Home.

Tiffany made nuggets, for dinner, using the deep fryer. She made 12 in total. She ate one, Ash ate 2 or 3 and I ate the rest of it with tomato and mayonaise. I had sparkling apple juice to go with it. After that, I had a packet of 18g chips and a bar of Kinder Bueno. Now, I feel so fat. Actually, I am growing more fat. Okay fine, I am fat. D:

To Pauline: Thank you for the compliment. It's tasty but it's hard because I put it in the oven for too long. So yeah, I will make it again till it's perfect! :)

M&M's cookies.

Home^JV Mall(ASB)^Bi's house^JV Mall(Countdown)^Home(I baked M&M's cookies with my younger host sister name Ashvini.).

There is no school today. I don't know why too. But I just know that there is no school on 19 June 2009 and that's all. So YAY! :D

2ND YEAR! :D

♥18 JUNE 2009♥
今そして永久に愛しなさい
Home^Onslow College^Bi's house^Town(Midland Sushi^Jay Jays. I bought a vest$10, top$10 and jacket$29. Good deal!^Readings^?? Japanese Restaurant. I felt so cheated.^Seoul House^Bus stop)^Home.

I made a bento for Bi, and it didn't turn out very well. :( He like it. :D I didn't take any pictures of it 'cause I was too excited and forgotten. But I took a picture of us! :D:D:D

Rice pot.

Home^JV Mall(Countdown^Umi Sushi^Countdown^Post office^Woolworths)^Chinese Takeaway^Bi's house^JV Mall(Just Jeans)^Home.

I couldn't get any avocado when I need them so badly. Normally, they have heaps when I don't want them. But when I need them for something, they just go missing. I checked everywhere in Johnsonville but I still can't get any. Damn.

TOMORROW IS MY SECOND YEAR ANNIVERSARY WITH BIBI! ^^

Control.

Home^Onslow College^Bi's house^Town(Chinese shop^Readings^Bus stop)^Home.

I am in a bad mood. I am very irritated, sad and tired. I will not tell anyone why, not even my mummy. And so, do not ask me why why why. I will most probably squash you into a pancake shape. :)

TO DO LIST:
- Tourism work
- Speech
- Essay
- Math (Trigonometry and Differentiation)
- Pack my room

I want to go back to Singapore too. I miss mummy and family and friends too. I should stop thinking about this.

I am feeling the pain. It's tearing me apart. I'm breaking down.

Take me away. Take me to a place just me and you. We will stay there and have fun.

But I know this will never happen.

I am losing it.

MONDAY, JUNE15, 2009
Home^Onslow College^JV Mall(Countdown^Food court^Basketball court^Bus stop)^Home.

SUNDAY, JUNE14, 2009
Home^Bi's house^Home.

SATURDAY, JUNE13, 2009
Home^Bi's house(I ate chicken rice. Na-ni-na-ni-po-po! :P)^Home.

Do it yourself!

FRIDAY, JUNE12, 2009
Home^Onslow College^Bi's house(Sesame+Cashew nuts+Mushroom.)^Home.

The bus didn't stop for me even though I waved like mad for it. Then I ran to the next bus stop and I was like 20 steps or less away from the bus stop. The bus drove off... In the end, I walked home. The walk was about an hour. The sky felt like tearing so I was caught in the rain. How awesome can this get?

Red or stripes?

I bought a tote from Country Road. I bought it because I really need a bigger bag. I bring a lot of things to school. For examples, my breakfast/break/lunch, water bottle, books, pencil case, iPod, camera, wallet, handphone, lollies, tissue... All my other bags are not big enough. :( I had to spend money. :(

Home^Onslow College^Bi's house(His mum bought donut for me. ^^ Fyi, a sugar donut cost NZ$2.20.)^Town(Country Road^Nike^Readings^(?)^Readings)^Home.

Anyway, I am going to do my work after blogging. It is due tomorrow! I do not want the teacher to ring my mummy, so I am going to do it like right now! READY, GET SET, GO!!!

PJ is me.

I am not in the mood to blog. I am totally worn out. I am starting to feel the work that is piling on top of me. I can hardly breathe. Oh my~

Home^Onslow College^Bi's house^Home.

I got the things mummy passed to my host. She packed it in a transparent bag so well. When I received it, I could see everything clearly. Awesome packing mummy. Thank you very much! :) My mummy went all the way to get my hp fixed for me. And dig among the pile of clothes I have to get the top I want. Also dig through the winter things to get my scarf. Deng, found a pair of socks that will keep my feet warm. Plus the medicine she packed for me 'cause I fall sick so often and I can't be bothered to make a appointment to see the doctor. She got face mask for me too, just in case I need it. Oh oh, my Chanel mascara too. I love you mummy! ♥

To fran: Hahahaha! I wore it after school. Did you see? Anyway, you will get to see me in it anytime this week 'cause it will be raining till this Sunday.

To Anonymous: Is there anything wrong? Fran says my raincoat is sexy, not me. Btw, I can read in between the lines quite well.

Flu+Cough.

I am very lazy to blog the past fews day because I was sick and so can't really be bothered to update since no one reads my blog other than my very loyal reader called Miss Goh. I am all good now, but still having some cough going on. :( The bus came late and quite a few people had problems with the driver. I was like damn it, quick get up the bus and moveee. I am so going to be late for school!. :@ When I alighted from the bus, I walked so fast to school. It was boring in class without Miss Goh during Economics. I was doing my work all the time. I had last spell off! :P After fourth spell, Bi and I walked to his place in the rain. As the rain was getting heavier, I decided to take my raincoat out. It was so useful. We had our last two packets of curry maggie mee. I want more of the curry maggie mee, I love it so much! :D Bi went for his training and I went home. I used my raincoat again!!! It keeps me warm and dry. It's so good. :) For dinner, I had chicken pasta with cheese on top of it and salad, and apple (?) for dessert. It's so yummy!!! ^^ I will post a picture of my dinner but not the dessert because I've forgotten to take a picture of it. Aww... I will go back to do my homework now because I am suppose to be doing my work. I came to blog because Miss Goh has been since yesterdayyy to read my blog. BACK TO SERIOUS BUTT-SI-NESS NOW!


P.S. I think I am growing fattttttt.

MONDAY, JUNE 8, 2009
Home^Onslow College^JV Mall(Countdown^Food court^Office)

I found my camera!!! :D The cleaner says that the guy working in Countdown from the fish area found it. Omgxzxzxz. I'm so thankful to that guy. He found and actually gave it to the lost&found. He is a very kind guy.

SUNDAY, JUNE 7, 2009
Home^Bi's house^Home.

SATURDAY, JUNE 6, 2009
Home^Bi's house^JV Mall(Countdown and bought pick&mix.)^(?) Gym^Cab to JV^Burger King^Caught the last bus home.

FRIDAY, JUNE 5, 2009
Home^Onslow College^Bi's house^JV Mall^Bi's house^Bus stop^JV Mall^Bus Stop^Home.

THURSDAY, JUNE 4, 2009
Home^JV bus stop^Onslow College^Bi's house^JV bus stop^Home(Francesca came to my place).

WEDNESDAY, JUNE 3, 2009
Home^Onslow College^JV Mall^JV train station^Jack's house(Bi got a haircut.)^Bus stop^Home.

TUESDAY, JUNE 2, 2009
Home^Onslow College^Bi's house^Home.

Queen's Birthday.

Home^Bi's house^Gym^Woolworths^Bi's house^Bused home(I alighted three bus stops earlier!)

I lost my camera!!! :"( I hope some kind soul will return my camera to me if they have taken it. I really love it a lot. It is something very special to me. I shared cost with my boyfriend and my mummy also contributed in it. It also contains all my memories with my family, boyfriend and friends in it. So please please please return it to me if you have it. I will appreciate you a lot. I pray that it will be back by my side soon. Dear god, please help me.

Sunday, May 31, 2009
Bathgate St home(BYEEEEEEEEE)^Churton Park home^JV Mall^Home all day...

Did I say I saw snow? Omgggg!!! It was snowing when I was loading my things to the car. Teehee.

Saturday, May 30, 2009
Francesca's place^Train station(Had train replacement. Lucky I saw the sign or I would be sitting at the station the whole morning)^Bi's house^JV Mall^JV swimming pool^Nando's^Woolworths^Home.

Friday, May 29, 2009
Home^Onslow College^Onslow Medical Center^Onslow College^JV Mall^Onslow College^Bi's house^JV Bus stop^Town(Pizza King^(?) Restaurant^Vitamin Drink Booth(To get free drinks. Teehee.)^Time Zone^Internet Cafe^Time Zone^Bus stop)^Francesca's place.